[People protect him. People get hurt. And what can he do about it? Besides soften up a little, leaning into the embrace; the soothing circles are well needed. Physical contact is something he likes, even if he's quiet about admitting it aloud.]
[Devon is quiet, lulled into a little more ease by the touch, by the kiss. He heaves a soft little sighing breath, looking at Harry, his dark eyes oddly deep for once. No stupid scowls, no witty biting commentary.]
... Life was easier when nobody cared about me. Now I feel all weird when people do stuff.
Yes. Human connections complicate matters a great deal. Your actions change. Your thoughts. But I think it's worth it. Even when they leave, or they die... The love you share with others matters.
[The people caring, the caring about people - the change that happens by letting people in. People go to bat for him and he's somehow surprised they find value enough in him to do that. He's going to have to get over it but worse, he's going to have to figure out what to do with his feelings in return. The instinct to run is so strong.]
... Like when you cancelled that fake trip a few months ago, I didn't know how to handle it so I got freaked out and angry. It was easier to try to make you leave by yelling at you than anything but you didn't leave.
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Devon?
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[Off by a window, he steps into sight - less energetic than normal, chewing on his thumbnail.]
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I'm so tired already.
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[He rubs his back in soothing circles.]
But you must endure.
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[And it sucks when you're LOSING at trying the same thing.]
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[He hugs him closer somehow.]
I am doing all I know how to ensure your safety.
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[People protect him. People get hurt. And what can he do about it? Besides soften up a little, leaning into the embrace; the soothing circles are well needed. Physical contact is something he likes, even if he's quiet about admitting it aloud.]
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[Harry turns his head just enough to kiss Devon's cheek.]
My dear one. We will make it through.
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... Life was easier when nobody cared about me. Now I feel all weird when people do stuff.
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Yes. Human connections complicate matters a great deal. Your actions change. Your thoughts. But I think it's worth it. Even when they leave, or they die... The love you share with others matters.
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[The people caring, the caring about people - the change that happens by letting people in. People go to bat for him and he's somehow surprised they find value enough in him to do that. He's going to have to get over it but worse, he's going to have to figure out what to do with his feelings in return. The instinct to run is so strong.]
... Like when you cancelled that fake trip a few months ago, I didn't know how to handle it so I got freaked out and angry. It was easier to try to make you leave by yelling at you than anything but you didn't leave.
[... Why didn't you leave?]
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I treated you all so poorly that month. It haunts me.
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[What that says about what Devon is used to...]
That was nicer than most people ever had before.
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[Getting another tight hug there, Devon.]
...please be safe, Devon. Whatever happens, please try not to come to harm.
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You too. I... don't wanna see anyone else I like locked up or worse, okay?
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[Loosening his grip just a little.]
... I'll keep you in the loop of stuff I hear if you do, too?
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[People think Devon's an idiot.]
... Do you have to go do stuff or can we just. Chill a bit more?
[Somebody hates being alone.]
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[Really, he ought to go. But...]
🎀
[Softly said.]